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Yes, God Confided In Me He Was Atheist!

Now this statement will get a lot of attention! I see multiple conversations immediately and mostly of the argument slant.

Precisely why I chose this little phrase that I over heard. Certainly, not for the lack of topics to write upon, I have several in the works with three books on the horizon and all too many stories buzzing in my body and head, saying “let me out, let those Samaria fingers hit the keyboard and write!”

Let’s back up just a little ~ readily I have admitted I am an Atheist and could easier believe, any god (as in all genders), be atheist as well! With my background, well that is a long story ~ over 50 years worth, this is a huge can of worms that continues to proliferate itself, and similar to an active volcano that never quiets its rumble.

Let’s catch up to the future with a little history. First, why was god, always depicted as “male gender? Was our only vision via Leonardo from da-vinci-himselfDA Vinci great pain staking years of painting the Sistine Chapel the only rendering of what a god might appear to be? Impressionism is a form of art.

Remember, the man was a Flamboyant gay artist!! Brilliant, talent beyond his centuries; conceiving of such ideas of airplanes and the configuration of the human body; purchasing corpses for dissection, when this was a criminal offense, was in fact punishable only by death! (You do understand that Da Vinci was not his last name?)

We can simply say, it was the authoritarian figures that started; when? If anyone were to read Karen Armstrong’s *A Battle for God* (excellent reading, she was also a nun, Oh that part about me you don’t know yet; more history to come). In this wondrous research and factual findings, Ms. Armstrong weaves history into stories of how and when all religions came into being. What centuries, and by way of what mass beliefs. Patience!

Ahhhh Belief, yes a Belief! In the end, it is all one of the same god by way of different nomenclature and venues of stories. Is it not? And yet we have wars and killings over a belief? Sigh!! Can you kill another man for the sake of a belief and would god be or become an atheist due to such ignorance? This incites that god could be mere mortal in some fashion. Oh heretical proselytizing. This is a moment in time of thinking about god and god’s beliefs.

This is what we humans do, we are the only creatures upon this earth that institutionalize beliefs systems, erecting great monolithic buildings in order to augment such beliefs, kill in the name sake of such beliefs, brawl and feud over such beliefs, and worse choose friends and mates over such beliefs.

I am French; I like sex, it may be more a deciding factor than a religious belief gods-and-demonssystem or will it? Yet we humans insist every individual story about god (??) be most revered, guileless, righteous and scrupulous tale of all beliefs systems and we should believe them! Which do we choose and why.

We are to honor them and live by their words, shouting from the hill tops of such beliefs.  Ohhh that was Moses and his burning bush, I would shout from the hill tops if my bush were on fire!

Back step for a moment please, and if you be a lawyer ~ sidebar story:

A Man; in moments and books, paintings and scholarly tales written in scrolls hidden in sands of caves (then the our current church doctrines in shame, hides the scrolls for it does not agree with current fundamental dogma). Are one or so men the only representation of heroic acts, an avatar, truth seeker of intelligence from inner wisdom of self?

What happened to my mentor, Hypatia? Or other great ladies, some may state Goddesses? Isis, Diana, Aphrodite, Venus ~ Many women have reach this symbl-of-womanaltruistic prowess, and beyond. Being authentic in nature, as predisposition at birth, realization of likeness; having gained the ability to be authoritarian figure. And who gave birth to all these deities?  This is the Goddess that sets most straight men wheeling into a firm attention; it is called the Vagina or Venus! Truly I am one to be grateful!

All this mentioned would be a form chaos and wars. Oh – right,  we already have these calamities transpiring on our planet for thousands of year; wars and chaos! Worse, we are the only hubris life forms that pontificate “we are the most intelligent and superior” and yet we kill for belief systems. We mane, harm and cause destruction…

Destruction: graphic word, immediately conjures visions of blood thirsts and buildings in ruins. We humans (of great beliefs and doctrine) are the only living creatures upon this planet who contaminates our air we desperately need for survival, more  contagion and pollution of our water ~ we adulterate with pestilence our water systems, oceans, rivers, streams in violation of the EPA. OOpps does the EPA still exit? Due to our congressional (all knowing intellectual) LEADERS’ and governmental expenditures cuts? See, I told you this was going to be a volcanic can of worms.

Back to humans and we are the supposed creation of said god which started this dissertation in questions and no answers. The only creation that mutilates other animals for the sheer pleasure of killing mounts them upon walls of our homes and have the audacity to say “isn’t it beautiful?” Was the animals’ appearance disdainful when grazing upon grass or leaping in joy filled with life?

We are the only creatures who think our linguists are the only languages that have a common theme, communication. This is befuddling. Cats ~ meow; dolphins and whales have a language that is far superior to humans for the sonic sounds travels for miles, through deep waters without shouting or screaming!!

Dogs bark and they know every language upon this earth if they are around humans (think about it). Wolves and lions have a hierarchy based on the strongest and fittest and they do kill for this position and for food. If we humans had this allowance of killing, our population would be one half of it’s populous due to lack of intelligence and mental derangement instead of fitness or adroitness. Why do humans have laws and animals do not? Because, we are idiots and do not get along in social structures.

life passionAdmittedly, our planet would invigorate itself if there be a lesser human population with lower impact. Nonetheless, those who would be left from a catastrophic calamity would all be scurrying for the last psychotherapist with no insurance, claiming trauma and PTSD, grief from loss, a natural process of life that one should be able to process from childhood experiences and yet we remain doltish. Never taking a firm look at the (lower instincts of nature) such as primates; they grieve in their own time, alone. And if they are successful, lift and walk beyond the grief, moving forward in life; if not, they simply die. ~ Think about it.

Worse, we condemn others for not contemplating in accordance to one or two doctrines of our societies upon this planet. Rather limiting don’t you think? Or do you think? Have you ever thought about the tiny worlds we would live in?

If we did not have computers, phones, electricity, we may be still living in caves; well some people still do live in subterranean grottoes, and I don’t blame them for being antisocial. After all the useless wars and killing of other humans (this in no way reflects upon our soldiers and their service); have you ever thought of the other human life, as they breathe and search for their meaning of life on other continents ~ their lives are worthy of us knowing their names; they have children and families; loves and dislikes and a religion that was just as viable as the ones’ we are standing in judgement of. Even atheists and agnostics have their beliefs.

Some of us do not perceive a boxed in life, and yet no box is our box!

We are the only creatures upon this earth that demand another to believe the same way and live the same, in accordance to be accepted by the watering hole of masses.

Why? Because we have psychological dependencies and frail egos that must have others’ join our way of thinking to feel good about ourselves, thereby enhancing our fragile self esteems? OOPPSS did I just have a Red Headed moment blurting out? You bet I did! Should I send you back to the article “Brainwashed, I Say.

Why do I ask such questions about a male god and why was he given the title of God? And what chosen religion did he choose? Protestant (they do protest a great amount), Catholic, Judeo Christianity, Hindu, Muslim, Methodist Buddhism, and does Mormon come into play? tell-the-truth

I think god, as intelligence as many creative books would lead us to believe, god chose NONE! If one reads one of many versions of the bible, (and how did King James get so popular, Jesus was not from the UK; United Kingdom, as in England, Ireland, Scotland for those who are geographically challenged, adjoining the English channel above France), why this version and not others, and those damned red lettered sentences!

Back to the original thought: if god confided in any of us (and some have claimed and written best sellers), god spoke to them in many a conversation, looked upon his creation and view from a distant universe, I believe god would be appalled! If my horses or dogs acted as we do on this planet, I think if I were a god, I would leave also or become an Atheist. Ops I Forgot, I am an Atheist!

In all candor; the 1980’s I study -read many venues of religious and spirituality. All verses and prose of wisdom and seeking of great minds, I wanted so to believe in something greater than I. I found one such creature, my Arabian horse.

The peaceful warriors resonate with my inner being,  I am a female! Yes, I am a female!  ~ Red head, French blooded ~ sensual and in accordance to my internal rebellious self, spiritual beliefs other places ~ my liveliness was not the most spiritual in many senses of the promulgated beliefs. I was an outcast once again. But I began to think.

Passionate: I run the gamut from sex to standing up and stating my mind. Oh dear, I am a female; I am expected to be soft and quiet and shy.  Snow balls chance in Hell! Never going to happen; I love taking on the institutions and misguided beliefs that are absolutely effluvium without thought or theory, or a seconding in questioning the facts. Taking a mystery and slathering it with a mythos as if this were to be the answers of all life.  sad-pit

Yes all said, give me something outside myself to augment my fragile esteem! I wanted to believe in a god, a great universe beyond, passionately. Who failed who? Or did we fail at all? There is a great universe and universes beyond the mind capacity of understanding. We are much to do about nothing.

Why do humans create such an anal scale of the medium and judge all else by percentages, higher or lower than norm? Can we all be just the norm?

Being spiritual meant (a true story): While at a large crystal exhibition in the late 80’s, one booth represented by a man in charge (of what he was in charge of is yet to be clear). He posed a $2000.00 crystal ball. It was beautiful; my eyes were taken by such a lovely work of art. And it was large ~ pink, I like large spherical balls. He stated he would only accept cash as a purchase for this lovely pink brilliant quartz. He had a prominent sign stating “credit cards” accepted, yet he turned away customers who wish to purchase the beautiful Pink dreamy crystal with a card or check. He lost at least ½ dozen sales. I was estimating his losses, while watching for a period; incredulous how humans cut their own throats behaving badly in a passive demeanor. Then he had the audacity to complained about his monetary lack and having to pay for ~the hotel and airline tickets, gas funding and food. Hmmm this was interesting play on ignorance. Why; because of his limited spiritual beliefs.

My point is beliefs are as erroneous in accordance to human life. It is good necessary in truth ~ to have integrity?. One must acquire honor, compassion, kindness, helpfulness, loving, caring; all the great qualities that makes humanity (and more) worth participating and feeling a part of in life. My point, is this a religion?

Many of us carry a great moral compass when born, of all these qualities and more. We are agnostics, atheists and do not own a gun to shoot others’ of a different belief, rather relish finding the differences to augment our wisdom and further our once limited point of view. Yes, someone else point of view is knowledge. What does this bring humanity? We all think differently thereby expand in wisdom.

We may grow up on the same continent, go to the same school and still be different. I was different on all accounts, for I grew up on three continents; spoke four languages fluently.

ImageI thought I was just a little different due to these circumstances. Well come to find out, there are people who lived their entire lives in one state, one town, never ventured further than these boundaries and see the entire world in a different light through different lenses,  than any of us could perceived!

What makes a human?

I am a writer, an atheist, an Equestrian and dog lover (also volunteer my talents to rehabilitate service dogs. I am a gourmand, life enthusiast and simple phrases make my mind think! Not complicated in the least.

One more other item whilst I have your attention. It’s about my body!

The body no congressional leader should have an opinion in regards to how I use and take care of my body, it is none of their business. The only opinion that matters is what I choose to do with this body of mine!