Excruciating Truth

Yes, Homelessness is an a atrocious plague, particularly when hearing the “imbecilic shortsighted judgements!

Why do people fall to such degrees? This is not a individual failure, it is our society filled with GREED! Our country does not and never will care about it’s overall population; we are a Republic!

I have heard shaming cruel words, without the person knowing they were speaking to a person who was homeless, living in their own car. How do these condition plague our non-empathic society, to such critical hatred? Dreadfully, many homeless individuals are educated, who had careers, now are stymied! I have stood in front of and listened to condemnatory words from a few, when I myself, was the person they were denouncing!

Yes, I have been in the “Homeless Car syndrome” by choice! Leaping from a horrible negligent landlords’ house, whose filthy and neglectful habits caused serious bodily injuries, twice! I am now two inches shorter due to these injuries!

This was the most difficult decision of my life!

Late 2023, I packed my car with organized precision, dog and cat, choosing to live my car. Being a military child, I adapt! Choosing a temporary condition living through a Colorado’s winter and longer than expected; a major stretch in endurance! Emotionally, physically, a primal impact on the three of us. We survived that fate, in degrees of desolation.

When major altering life ordeals from the depths of despair transpire, there are no instant any things; in my face critical crises and mental torment!

I met with more than a life’s worth of discriminations and conundrums. Every step called for gut wrenching examination. There was no reverse; only internal emotional sewage frothing – splintering internal break downs. My past corporate trouble shooting knowledge came into play, not jobs, there is formidable age discriminations. My entire life shattered and I am NOT embarrassed!

Recently, I was at my storage unit storing more items, less clutter is easier; we function best on the lean side, including food, except for my dog, Aspen. Organization is a must, the less I deal with in material the better, thinking through everyday thoroughly, is sanity’s survivor mechanism, with forlorn sadness; as I glanced over my furnishings! I MISS ME!

When leaving I went into the storage center, vomiting angst to the manager, she stated; MicheleElys, you are the most determined person I have ever known! I have never seen anyone with more determination, as you! Your determination is beyond understanding, it is over the top and powerful; YOU GOT THIS! My mouth hung open in disbelief. My return comment was, “I am?” Who is this person who I see has failed, while others view as remarkable?

She was spot on in her words: What keeps me going is; ubiquitous internal determination to push through and succeed beyond all known measure and write the outcomes of life! Yet, I quit writing, with many retorting, “you are an excellent writer ~ write about it!” Where was I inside? Caught in the malingering Homeless phase?

The next day I finally broke down, crumbling in my SCL doctor’s office, this phase is highly important emotionally, when allowing ones’ self to crash, sleep and wake with a refreshed brain!

Kintsukuroi: being better for having been broken. Yes, there is beauty when coming from the fractures of life, escaping the excessively critical views of the masses!

Life – Take A Huge Breath & Jump!

I have met many highly successful people, now living on limited incomes and in their cars, stating “I don’t know how to do this!”

We entered the Rod Serling Twilight Zone written by Stephen King, trapped in an era of discrimination, with many people lost! All leading to “malingering disorders imposed on the vulnerable, Homeless vacancy!”

Shelters are dicey; egregious scuffing judgements, including from a psychologist attempting to bully me via counter transference. I might be down and poor at the moment, BUT don’t mess with this redhead when I am under! I reported her! The worse can always hit, I call it:

Worse ~ Worser to worsest

This sounds like a bad law firm in my head!

We did NOT see these horrible life altering problems coming, as Covid encroached upon our world. Many died! We thought those horrendous moments would also die, they did not! The worst was yet to come, while we stood in shock from the previous tsunamis.

Businesses never re-opened! People were and still are traumatized with no place to call home! Many facing incredulous judgements, instead of help!

There are not enough well educated therapists to help recover from lingering current traumas in life. The hospitals here in 2024 are still riveting, crazed, trying to operate with exhausted staff!

Three plus years ago I adopted my dog and trained her to be my Service dog due the massive injuries, a loving aptitude I have had my entire life; included training horses, cats, dogs and birds. Did I see my own future? I was dangling in a atrocious environment with an abusive landlord. I had to remove myself from the appalling, with twice the injuries, to solitary unknown upheaval.

lawyers are busy

We are in a muck of over the top greed in housing/rental costs, food escalating cost, couples with children homeless on the streets and a governing body wishing it would all disappear. Instead there are escalations of horrid factors – rents and housing are not going down, they have tripled and quadrupled in hideous condition. Adding to these current ailments, are mounting personal Landlord suits. Lawyers have their picks these days against these egregious activities, including conglomerate apartment, incased in “Class Action Suits of all degrees are exploding,”

I know, I have spoken to several attorneys, they have mind boggling amounts of work. Many cannot answer all the calls, instead leaving messages, “we are no longer accepting new clients” or sending texted messages, “try these firms .” We are in critical crisis times and the affects have been overwhelming for hospitals’ staff, many therapists who have taken long sabbaticals, some never reopening! Instead “tele-health exploding! This is not therapy! Complaining to a friend via a cellphone does not work!

if you don’thave a place to fit~create one!

And I did! Forming a new small business “Brainy~Barkers” training service dogs, taking a course and studying dog muscular structure, understanding application of Kinesio tapping. Kinesio tape has been around for at least forty years, for all degrees of injuries for the human and of recent years, horses included. Now more recent there is Canine Kinesio, I taught myself canine skeletal and muscular system, effective application of the Kinesio tapping, now part of my four part business. I knew personally, for decades, how beneficial Kinesio has been for my own injuries.

Forming new venues, potentially lowering vet bills allowing dogs to heal naturally along with their owners emotional relief. Advocating adoption from shelters, saving two lives, the dog/cat and person, all likely in emotional need. There are no therapists who live with clients, yet dogs will!

Animals accept us at our highest and lowest points in life.

Cats are therapeutic their purring is a Xanax, Calming!

My SimSai, an abandoned kitten I found, walking around my Arabian horses legs. My Arabians have passed on in the last few years, SimSai is currently staying safely at a friend’s home, being loved, away from summers’ blistering heat.

Adopt – Save Two Lives!

There are solutions to be found if we are willing to change our lives. Life altering is difficult, we must be willing to adapt to what we deem difficult (at first)! Homelessness is horrid! Homelessness might be a good course taught in schools, teaching, “do not judge – this is a growing factor in life.”

There are no safe guards in our country, other countries do thrive such as Norway, Singapore and morr, who offer low income housing, or build housing for homeless, education for healthier solutions for those whose minds could not handle the shock. These degrees of shock in living without a home base; a place to rest peacefully when exhausted, allowing our brains to rest is vital, a true Shelter!

Last, have personal influences. I love inspirational classical music, which I will have on a loop the entire day, finding what inspires, creates a domino effect, and try what others condem; Judgements are only limitations of ideas in life. We never know what will work until we look at all potential solutions!